I think I’m finally settling into this semester. It hasn’t been easy, and I’ve finally realized that I actually DO need to spend the extra time reading and studying. But it’s also important to take some time for myself and my family. After three surprisingly awesome hours studying for my next science exam, I decided to ‘take the night off’ and watch a movie. It was amazing! Today I was up early and got to watch the teenager play Zelda while listening to a podcast. I’ll be settling back into homework this afternoon for a bit, but the short purposeful break was exactly what I needed.
Last week I began a new semester of college, in addition to my regular busy life. I’ve been a full time college student for a year, and while it was challenging, and stressful, I was able to complete each semester successfully, and even managed to enjoy the majority of my classes. I’m not so sure about this semester. I’m a perfectionist and have ridiculously high expectations for myself and this semester will completely challenge that. I’m taking half of my classes through Ferris, and the other half through LCC, and surprisingly it’s the LCC classes that are already giving me the most difficulties. Nothing is worse (of COURSE there are worse things, but at the moment, in my own little universe there isn’t) than being a 40 year old adult taking a science class with a group of 20 year olds and immediately feeling like a complete idiot. This is the first time in 2 years where I have truly and honestly considered just quitting. Do I really need this degree? Do I really need the MLIS? Do I really need the increased debt? Do I really need to take 4 days each week away from my family? Not to mention all of the time spent studying? 10 hours per class is what the instructors say.
No. I don’t NEED to do this…But I WANT to. I want this. I can do this. I’m so much better than this self doubt and Mom guilt. I need to get over the worry, the perfectionism, the feelings of inadequacy and just do this… no matter how hard, how much time it takes, or what I have to give up to do it.
I CAN do this.
*Thanks to my friend Eryca for sharing the quote from Ann Voskamp…it steadies my soul ❤️
Lazy, cozy morning
Snuggled on the couch
Reading stacks of books
Preparing for the week ahead
I love Sunday
Today’s picture book pile
Whole30 approved bacon & spinach feta eggs
(Brunch for the week. FYI-eggs double when they bake!)
Since it’s my last day of break and I was finally feeling human, I made this AMAZING Osso Bucco for dinner and it was a total family win!
I served it with some ‘cauliflower rice’ and the family added some crusty bread.
The only ‘modification’ I made was using two cans of diced tomatoes vs the fresh because it’s Michigan, and good, real, fresh tomatoes are impossible to find.
The best part was using two beautiful pounds of sirloin tips from the 1/2 cow we purchased this fall from our neighbors... it was beautiful and cut like butter!
Try this recipe out if you’re looking for a hearty beef stew, paleo, whole30 or otherwise. (No finished pictures because we ate it all!)
I attempted to start the whole30 this week but had a major off day yesterday. So I’m starting again. Breakfast/lunch at 2pm was not a good idea but I slept in and had some things to do. So this amazing late brunch was jut what I needed…plus some water… I’m SO bad at drinking water! But I know it will help curb my cravings and also is good for my joints (the reason I’m starting this in the first place). I thought I’d need toast, because what are eggs without toast?! But I didn’t need it! That’s a win for me and my carb loving self. The secret to this being as delicious as it is, is leeks!! Oh my sweetness! SO good!!!
Here’s what’s in this:
3 kinds of local kale-about 5 leaves
The whites of one large leek
Local red pepper
Grated garlic ( Thank you Rachel Ray for the grating advice all those years ago!)
Imported orange pepper-since I had it and it looked like it needed more color
Olive oil, salt and pepper
3 beautiful free range eggs from our own hens
That’s it! And it is so filling I left one egg and a scoop of veggies in the pan. (That’ll be a snack or something tomorrow)
Honestly? Who knew real food could taste so good?! Stay tuned!